End of school blahs April 20, 2007

Two more weeks of classes/finals. I should be happy, and I guess I am, but I’m having difficulty concentrating–guess that’s why I’m writing this blog instead of studying for my test today. Why is that the case? I should be working ahead! Getting stuff done! So that all I have to do is to take the final and be finished! But part of me will miss school. Because I’ll be at home more…I’m really wishing and hoping to get extra hours at my job so I won’t have to. I like being at home, but sometimes–most of the time–I want to get away. I want to walk around the city. I want to explore. I want to travel. I want to write, sitting on the grass outside, uninteruppted. I want to go to movies. I want to go to Europe! Anything besides being stuck at home. I think I have “cabin fever”, or “cabin avoidance”. But lack of money kinda precludes most of these things.

So, I guess that’s why I don’t want school to end (though it would be nice to have it over with). I like learning, and I like talking to *most* of my classmates. I like being away from home all day. The only thing that would change my opinion would be if my dad got an office. For now, he works at home. It’s driving Mom up the wall, but she can’t let him know that. He says he likes being home, but he acts like a two-year old. Not with the tantrums, but with the constant pestering and annoyance. Now are you surprised I want to be away from home? Is it no wonder that I don’t want school to end?

Election 2008… April 18, 2007

…I know it’s way too soon to be thinking about a new election, but if people are already announcing that they’re running, then I ought to put in at least my two cents’ worth. Don’t worry, this is a short blog; I have to get back to studying for my finals.

I have been researching for good candidates for the presidency, and had been discouraged by the lack of consistent, ethical, true-to-form, (and especially) pro-life candidates. No, Romney isn’t a true pro-life candidate. While I applaud his change of view on the abortion and stem-cell issues, it’s not enough for me to trust that he’ll be a pro-life president. Brownback, I’ve just recently found, is a true pro-life, as far as I can tell. I found him while working on my Facebook profile. He’s seems consistent, voting-wise and issue-wise. He knows life begins at conception, he knows unborn babies feel pain during abortion, and he supports adoption, having adopted himself. Because of that, nobody can call him an hypocrite. He also wants to improve the lives of children and families already born, so he can’t be portrayed as a person who “forgets” that life issues don’t end at birth. And he’s the first true-to-form Catholic. If the Vatican endorsed candidates, they’d endorse him.

Senator Brownback, if you are reading this, you’ve got this college girl’s vote.

School is almost over… April 5, 2007

I’m feeling some sort of let-down…and school isn’t quite over yet! I thought I was finally getting ahead with homework (yes, I work far ahead), but now all of sudden I have a test every week until finals, when I have more tests…as well as two papers (honors papers, so yes, they’re tougher), but still I feel like I should be doing more work.

Well, I am. We started the university’s first pro-life group on campus just this past week, and we’re super busy getting things in order for our fall shebang. Perhaps that’s why I feel…I don’t know what I feel. I just think I’m supposed to have two or three more months to go, and all of sudden it’s done?! And we’re just getting going with our group!

Well, I have a test tomorrow, that I need to read 5  more chapters and 4 more articles for, and I really should stop procrastinating and get to work. So, ciao.

I had a dream last night… April 4, 2007

that I was eating non-stop. It was a bad dream. First I ate breakfast, like I always have to do within an hour of waking up (otherwise I feel really sick), then somebody gave me a snack, then I was obligated to eat a huge lunch because it was an honors luncheon or something, and I kept thinking about how I’m going to gain 10 pounds.

I’m not quite sure why it was such a bad dream, except that I’m trying to eat healthy. Perhaps it was because of the high amount of sweets I consumed…let me explain. I’m trying to avoid large amounts of sugar because it makes me sick. I guess I might have hypoglycemia, but haven’t gone to the doctor about it. I have to eat regularly, like every 3 hours, otherwise my sugar gets too low, but if I eat too much sugar, like a can of pop or a serving of Peeps, then I get lightheaded, woozy, and generally “blah”. It’s a new shift, this “sensitivity” to sugar is only about two months old, and already I hate it. But at least I’m not a diabetic. Or overweight. My BMI is 23 point something.

And, as a college student, I’m trying to avoid gaining the “freshman 15″, which, so far, I’ve been sucessful with. But I thought I wasn’t obsessed about it. I mean, sure, I weigh myself every two weeks, but I didn’t think it was an obsession…until I had that dream last night. Maybe I’m obsessed with not being obsessed? Or perhaps I had this dream to discourage me from being pressured into eating by others? This second explanation may be the best one. I have a “friend” (see my last blog) who is definitely obese, and she still eats junk food and drinks pop like crazy. Perhaps I’m afraid of being like her.

Whatever the reason behind my dream, it is important to eat healthy and be healthy, especially since they’re now calling obesity an “epidemic”. Don’t be a statistic. I hope I never am.