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I have all the friends in the world… March 31, 2007

Filed under: college,friends,happiness,Harry Potter,Identity,joy,philosophy,religion,school — bookwritegirl @ 3:21 pm

so why do I feel so lonely?

 I can make “friends” easily, but I have no one “truest of the true” friend, a friend I can tell my deepest secrets and trust that she won’t divulge it to others, a friend I never not want to visit. It seems like I have several different “kinds” of friends…I have school friends whom I go to 3 or more classes with, to talk about class. But nothing else. I have an email friend to talk about guys and homeschooling with. I have a friend whom I talk with occasionally, about philosophy. I have friends who are of the same religion I am, I have a friend who is crazy about Harry Potter like I am, but I don’t have a religion/philosophy/guy/Harry Potter/feelings friend.

True, I can always talk to God, Jesus, Mary and the angels and saints, and I do, but it’s difficult to carry on a conversation and ask questions and not get immediate answers like with a friend. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate all of God’s help and kindness, but I wish my imagination were reality, so He’d sit at the edge of my bed while I empty my heart out to him.

Please, God, send me a best friend.

 “The day is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the mouldering wall,
But at every gust the dead leaves fall,
And the day is dark and dreary.

My life is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
My thoughts still cling to the mouldering Past,
But the hopes of youth fall thick in the blast,
And the days are dark and dreary.

Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.” The Rainy Day, by H.W. Longfellow

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